So I am a nervous reck

So we only have one week left until Chris will be home again and I don't even know what to do with myself. I have so much I would like to accomplish, but all I really want to do is sit on our couch eat nothing but sweets and feel sorry for myself. That is the honest truth! Even though that sounds awesome to me I can't do that. I have to keep pushing forward and be the best mother and the best wife that I can be. Now is the time when all my boys need me the most and I hope and constantly pray that I can be that for them. I really couldn't have done this without God on my side. It is so miserable being away from the love of my life, my best friend, and the best father for my children. This has been the best experiance and the most important experiance of my whole life.  It really took a lot of myself to be strong for our kids and to support my husband while he was at sea. I felt like above all else that was my most important job and I know in my heart that I did the best that I knew how. I can't wait to see my husbands face again and all I really know at this point is that God is the only one that can get me through this hard time with such grace and peace. I give God all the glory!

So we got good word that Chris will be able to fly home once his ship reaches Hawaii. So we are expecting him home a week earlier than originally planned. I am so excited and stressed. I know how close we are to seeing each other again. I keep thinking of how that moment is going to feel. I hope that it feels as if no time has passed before. I pray that Gavin still remembers his Daddy and that Logan is just drawn to him as if he was here all along. We are doing great and I just hope that I can keep myself busy enough until he comes home.